Instant Insanity

Good vibrations

2009-07-17T07:18:00.000-07:00

"I, I love the colorful clothes she wears

And the way the sunshine plays upon her hair

I hear the sound of a gentle word

On the wind that lifts her perfume through the air

I'm picking up good vibrations

She's giving me excitations

Good bop bop, good vibrations

Good, good, good, good vibrations

Close my eyes, she is somehow closer now

Softly smile, I know she must be kind

When I look in her eyes

She comes with me to a blossom world

I don't know where, but she sends me there

Oh my my my, what a sensation

Oh my my, what elation

Got to keep those loving good vibrations

Happening with her"

"Beach Boys - Good Vibrations"

'Wait... who is that she, Ozark, tell us! Who...... is....... she'

It's metaphoric, She is not a person, she is the club. She is "The Colosseum of Rock". She is a place to love, she is amazing, she is rockin', she is..... in my heart......

She is home....

Picking Up The Pieces, The Future Starts Today....

2009-07-09T00:12:00.000-07:00

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.

Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.

Lynyrd Skynyrd - Freebird

Yes.... Again some changes in my Second Life. A lot has happened. I'm not gonna talk about it on this blog. I just thought you all should know. The lyrics of the Lynyrd Skynyrd tune seem to fit to those things, those changes, those happenings very well. My god... were things complicated.

If you really want to know, just look me up inworld, and maybe, just maybe, in time, I can talk about it.

Now all I can say is that I'm ok. I'm not the mess you might think I am. Ready for some more changes? Guess not, guess I'm taking a break from changing anything now......

Twilight zone....

2009-05-26T02:26:00.000-07:00

What am I doing to myself. I started my Second Life to have a life without responsibilities, without expectations. That would be so cool. Wandering around in a world where nothing hás to be done, where there is no preasure, no deadlines and no one to keep in mind. Total freedom in every thinkable way. Yeah.... Right.... Like I can do that! I was a fool believing that kind of place could exist. I'm way to much a people-person, I care way to much for others. It seems to be impossible to hide myself from Second Life. Ozark started to become more and more like me, the person behind the keyboard. Man... I think now he is me!

Does that feel bad? Does it make me sad? No, not at all... It makes me feel great! I like that Ozark guy! He could be a close friend of mine! Man, I love him for who he is! And I love the things he does....

He has lived through so much already. He has jobs, he met great other persons, he met love, lived love, lost love and met new love. My god! Is this trully a Second Life? Isn't this another First Life? I like to see it like something in between. Some things go into First Live, some stay to be Second Life..... Ozark kinda lives in the twilight zone somewhere between 1st and 2nd life. And that's the place he should be. There he feels fine, and therefor the guy behind the PC feels great also.

Thanks to all to make that twilight zone an amazing place to be. You rock my worlds. Both 1st and 2nd.....

Good to know ur being watched...

2009-05-15T17:54:00.000-07:00

I know, before my last post, it had been awhile. Way to long, come to think. I even started to doubt if it was worth the effort of posting another one. I did because I simply had to tell it somewhere.

Then.. today, just a few ago, I looked at my gmail......... and there was one. One mail telling me posting still is ok, is appreciated...

Serval, thanks..... You made me smiling with it...

Strange things happen in pixelland..

2009-05-15T02:09:00.000-07:00

Yes, strange things. Good things though, very good. Things that make me smile again, after a rather bad few weeks. Things I needed, things I didn't expect, things that shock my world.

Like I said... Strange things, but please.... don't let anybody or anything stop them from happening.....

2009-04-16T01:15:00.000-07:00

O dear, am I getting lazy? it´s been a month since I posted the last time. Time to do some catching up, I guess. Now all I have to do is think about what to write about. And, my god, that is hard, since so much has happened the last few weeks. Let´s see, let´s try to sum it up for a bit:

First of all, well, look back at my last post. Yes, it sure looked like a good moment to have me a slight change of scenary concerning DJing. Leaving the place where it all started, Sanctuary Rock and try to reach the same at another spot, CrusFX. Three weeks it lasted. Then the new venue had to close down. Yeah.... That´s just my luck, don´t you think? But... besides mising out a fun moment weekly spinning tunes, it also left me with an oppertunity. All of a sudden I had time to take my bussiness somewhere else again! Oppertunity, hehe, it´s funny to read I used that word. It was more like a choise. Back to the old nest Sanctuary Rock, or... finally getting to play a regular set at "The Colosseum". Not the easiest choise, if you ask me. Sanctuary has always been good to me. I like the crowd there, the staff, management... I like the place itselves! It has been my second home for quite a while! But.. "The Colosseum", the place me and two close friends do want to see growing bigger and bigger also took a piece of my heart. It seems to go pretty well there! More people showing up during events, de group of patrons grows slowly, and the amount of fun overthere is heartwarming. And this while the building proces of that place isn´t even all finished yet! The shopping area needs a serious make-over. The shops themselves would look even better filled. But.. I think it´s just a matter of time before these things will start to get better aswell.

There that was talking bussiness, now on to social (Second) Life.
Social (Second) Life can only start with just one name. Meka. Yes, we are still doing pretty ok together, although, the last few days.... SL is feeling a bit empty. No, we are not having somekind of fight, no, not at all. Fact is Meka is on some beach, holding a margaritha right now, and I´m still in this virtual world we so like to call our second life! Man, I do like vacations, but it should be me having them, hahaha! Or both, of course, together, lol.. If only...
Good to know her vacation will be over in just a few days. Then I think it´s up to me to guide her throught the hard time of vacation rehab. Help her get back to normal again.

Of course my Second Life isn´t about just her and DJing alone. I know more people inworld. People I love being with too. People I love talking to, either the quickly sent IM´s or the good chats we have, I love them all. Those people are the ones making these empty days a bit less black. Thank you all, I think you all know who I´m talking about.

Finally... a special moment. Before you read on, get your agenda and a pen, ´cause I´m gonna order you to write something down......

Back already, with both agenda and pen?

Good, here it is then, write down: "April 25th, 1 - 7 pm SLT, Freakheim, be there".

Why? Well, it´s gonna be a blast of a party there that day, because we are gonna cellabrate Freakheim´s 1st anniversary!! One year of total, insane freakiness. How to capture all that in just 6 hours. Let´s see, damn, I think it´s kinda impossible! But of course we came up with a few things. To name just two (use that agenda and the pen again):

1 - 5 pm SLT:
The 3th Freakheim DJ Battle, with DJ´s swapping the stream on and off, trying to outfreak eachother. You sure don´t wanna miss out on that!

5 - 7(ish) pm SLT:
The usual Saturday Schred by the one and only Freakmagnet himself, Mr. Rykk Ferraris! The boss himself taking his responsibility to rock us all big time. You never know what will happen.... But when you´re not there, you can´t join us on memory lane after it. It´s up to you!

The Times They Are A-Changin'

2009-03-17T02:51:00.000-07:00

Yes, I needed a change. After two years of playing my tunes at still one of the best places in Second Life, I decided to take another route. I had been thinking about it for quite some time, weighting all pros and cons, but in the end it led to me quitting my job as a DJ at Sanctuary Rock. This Thursday will be the last set I will be paying there. I’m aiming 4 a memorable one, though, since, well, it’s not just quitting a job, it’s quitting at the place where it all began. On my first day in Second Life, I was taken to Sanctuary Rock. I was taken by just some stranger I asked where I could hear some kickass, rockin’ tunes. The lady I asked just took me to the right place immediately! From that moment on I was hooked, hooked to that wonderful place. In like two months I applied for the job as a DJ there, and…. Somehow I got it. I have to say I only could do this with the help of two persons that still are special to me. Rohan Ayres and Marvel Kit. Those two guys really helped me out with the software needed to DJ in the first place! Thanks a lot, guys, I still owe you for just that.

Two years…. My god…. That’s quite some time. It wasn’t an easy decision to quit, I can tell you that! All those memories, al those people I got to know at Sanctuary Rock. To many to name them all, but those I’m talking about know I’m talking about them. Guys, girls, don’t think with me quitting my job at Sanctuary Rock you finally got rid of me. No.. I will keep on bugging you any chance I got! You can count on that!

So… does this mean I won’t be throwing my tunes into the world of Second Life anymore? Of course not.. I will keep on terrorizing your ears. Only from a different place right now. I was asked to come play at yet another great place and yes, I couldn’t resist. The place is called CrusFX. Come see the place for yourself when you’re inworld. I think it won’t disappoint you any bit. It rocks! And of course, I will keep on playing at that other two clubs as well. I didn’t quit my job at Freakheim Funeral Home and the Colosseum Of Rock. So plenty of possibilities to still got freaked out by those weirdass tunes I do like to play so much….

See you inworld!!!!!

~"When Worlds Collide"~

2009-02-18T16:29:00.000-08:00

"When our two worlds collided, it gave us something divine.... Something special, something to hold on to, something to wake up with wearing a smile, something to go to bed with still wearing that same smile, and all in between was just perfect. It makes us stronger by the day."

There is sunshine ahead!

2009-02-06T05:53:00.000-08:00

There is sunshine ahead. Yes, sunshine, and in several different ways even...

1. Winter has gone is his last few weeks. After winter it will be spring, followed by summer. Of course you all know that. But with the fact spring and summer are upon us, we can trust on getting more sunshine! Not that I dislike winter, no, not at all, but to be honest, I've had it with those cold, cold days and nights by now. Bring on the sun! I'm ready for it.....

2. And with the temperature going up, my mood will get a boost aswell. Not that I'm all grumpy during those dark and cold days in winter, but yes, I do feel better when there is sun in my life. When there is sun in my life I feel capable of taking on more then usually. I start to get more energy, and see more fun in whatever I do.

3. Speaking of sunshine, I will have a special event at "The Colosseum of Rock" that probably will catch both the two things I wrote about above. I will play only tunes that will get the temperature to rise, and that will do miracles on your mood! Just tunes with 'rays of sunlight' in them. Think Manu Chao, Noir Desir, Air, Mau Mau, Ozomatli, etc, etc, etc. I hope to see a lot of close friends during that event. It will take place at monday feb. 9 (1.30 - 3.30 pm SLT).

4. More sunshine would be someone I got in touch with. I know it's still early, but I gotta tell you this: I'm having a good time with her. We take it by the day, and see what the future brings us. Up untill now, I'm looking at the future wearing a real big smile.

There, after these few points, it's time to take a drink. Cheers! Cheers on the sun!

Looking back to go forward

2009-01-22T05:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes to go forward you have to take time standing still. Standing still, overthinking past and present. Well, this looks like a good moment to do just that.

While overthinking the past, the most important thing happened would, of course, be Guen and I breaking up once again. I know, aftergetting back together during that event at Freakheim I wrote about earlier, Guen and I both promised to do our best to make it work again, to fix all things causing the first break-up. I can tell you that during the time we were a couple again we honestly both tried, but somehow it still didn’t work out the way we both hoped it would work out. I can’t stress out enough that breaking up for the second time was a mutual decision. We both had serious doubts weather we would be able to meet the future we both were hoping for.
I also have to tell you all we parted ways, promising to keep on being good friends. To be honest, I can’t think of another way then that. My memories of our partnership are way to good to be spoiled by stupid drama.

Guen, you still are special to me, although in a different way then before. I know I will think back frequently and I know those memories will put a smile on my face every time I do just that. I’m glad to have you as a friend, don’t you hazitate to send me an IM just when you feel like it.

Another thing to stand still with is that club. “The Colosseum Of Rock!” I think it’s on the right track. Slowly more people seem to find their way to that wonderful place. This really is a big achievement to all the boys and girls of the C.O.R.-staff!Boys, girls, keep on rockin’ and make this place feel like home even more.

You gotta know I love you all, not just for your efforts, but also for being yourself! ‘cause that’s what “The Colosseum” is all about. A place you can be yourself, nothing more, nothing less. We take you the way you are........

The "Colosseum Of Rock"

2008-12-30T11:55:00.000-08:00

Like I say in my DJ schedule right here on my blog, I sometimes decide to just hijack the stream at a place called "The Colosseum Of Rock". Well, yesterday was one of those days. And why? well, let me explain. This Xmas I got me, finally a Nintendo Wii! Of course the day after Xmas I ran to the store to get me "Guitar Hero World Tour. Since then, I'm addicted. I'm even that much addicted to that sertain game, I had to have the complete sondtrack of that game. Yes, call me odd, call me strange, call me anything you want, I'm sure whatever you call me, it's right on the spot.

So... I got me the soundtrack, put it on my MP3 player, and enjoyed all those wonderful tunes whenever I had time, wherever I was. At work, in my car, laying in a nice warm bath, I just could'nt get enough of all those great guitar tunes.

Then came yesterday. I got home from work and, strange, I didn't feel the urge to play the game anymore. But still I had all those kickass tunes, so, what should I do....

My mind was made up pretty soon. I had to share those tunes with others. And the best way bto do that was,of course, to get inworld, hijack the C.O.R.-stream, call over my friends, tell them to bring their air guitars and have a Rockin' time all together! And rockin' it was!

Here is a pic of Maxxius Sternberg, one of the owners of "The Colosseum" and me battling it of with our own guitars and guitar playing moves!

And how about this one: Zaza Beaumont, the other owner of "The Colosseum and me giving away a good show playing the air guitar!

And that's just what I so like about "The Colosseum", nothing in the world, RL or SL, is to strange to put up there. When you read this and it makes you wonder. Get your ass over inworld and visit that club. I promise you you won't regret.

Can't find the damn place? Just IM me and i hook you up with a landmark or even invite you to the clubs group!

Omigod... scary times @ Freakheim!

2008-12-28T13:49:00.000-08:00

Yes, scary it was, my set december 27th.... And I did it all by myself. As you could have read in my last post, Guen and I decided to split up after some real good months together. Things just didn't work out the way we both thought they should...

Well guess what.... Christmas time really seems to be a time of thinking things over, and so did I. After some good thinking, helped by some amounts of alcohol, I thought "wait.... this isn't right...." We promissed to be there for eachother in good AND bad times! We should have given the bad feelings more of a fight!

So I decided to do just that. I decided to take a chance. Either I was about to make a big fool of myself, or I was about to be one of the true romantic guys in Second Life! I was about to...... ask Guen to get back together!

Noooo, not just using a simple IM, but on air, through the microphone, during my set at FREAKHEIM! The same place as where we had our wedding party!

So, yesterday I got it all planned. I got my tunes right, got an audience and..... Guen was there too! Of course I had me some beers to get in the right mood, and of course I got me more on stand-by for if Guen should turn me down.

Well, those stand-by beers, I'm having now! Didn't need them yesterday! Guen sad YES!!!!

So I think you all can imagine how I'm feeling now... This year Chistmas rocked!

Guen.... Let's face our demons, beat them and have the time of our lives....

I'm up for it!!!

Sometimes love goes strange ways.....

2008-12-24T06:32:00.000-08:00

Christmas time. Sometimes a very emotional time. Yeah, I've heard people saying that before, but I never had anything to with it.... untill this year. My god, emotional it was, and still is. Some of you might have heard of it in the last few days already, might have been wondering if it was really true even...... Yes, it is true. Guen and I, the couple that always looked as happy as can be, did splitt up on 12-22-2008.

"Why?" I hear you thinking... Well let me tell you. As you may know already, Guen and I both are quite busy people, In RL, but certainly when we are inworld too. Guen has her shops, her DJ sets, and I didn't sit still either. I got my own DJing going on. Then Guen took the possition of manager over at Sanctuary Rock, and I decided to help out a new club, The "Colosseum Of Rock", with getting on the map.

This way time to spend together got even less then it already was! And believe me, it already was a hard thing to find some quality time for just the 2 of us, even without these 2 new commitements. And living 7 timezones away from eachother didn't help a bit too, of course.

Breaking up was hard to do... We both know it's probably the right thing to do, but with the love still in our systems, it was hard to give in to reason. I know, probably we should have tried to fight for it, but then again.... we already started to drift away from eachother some time ago.

I don't want you to think we left eachother with angry feelings, cause that's certainly not true. I still feel for Guen, and she does for me. It's just that love has strange ways sometimes. Sometimes you just gotta let someone go to show how deep the love is.

Guen, dear, hun, just know you will be missed big time. Thanks for all the good times we had, thanks for all the good memories.

Don't let this be a total ending though, don't hasitate to contact me. I know we still can have lots of fun, even when it's gonna be on another level from now on.

Please... don't stop rocking my world..... I won't stop shaking yours aswell...

Important notification....

2008-12-12T05:49:00.000-08:00

Here´s what I want you all to do:

You ladies, reach down in your handbags and find that little agenda and look for december 20th. Use some tipex to get rid of the barber´s appointment probably on that day (it´s gotta be there, it´s the last saturday before X-mas....), and write down this:

"December 20th, 12 - 5 PM SLT, make sure to get to FREAKHEIM!"

Why, you wonder? Cause that day will be our "Freakin' Xmas Party"!!!!

We're gonna have a DJ Battle, crazy hourly contests with huge prizes, mystery gifts & more!! And, of course, the BEST music in SL!! You don't want to miss this bash, it's guaranteed Freakiness!!

The DJ battle will last for 5 whole hours, make sure not to miss any minute of it...

And all you boys, I know we don´t ever use agendas, so either you tell your wife to write it down for you, whitch would result on her knowing where you will be that day.... or you think of another way to not forget this crazy, freakin´ feast!

The Darker Days...

2008-12-11T08:36:00.000-08:00

It´s almost that time of the year again. Time to get closer to eachother, they say. Time to think about how good life is. Time to reflect. Time to think over what a year it was. Yes, it´s december. Short days, long nights.

And then it hits you. The darkness. Making you feel all sad. That´s when the remedy kicks in. X-mas!

Yes! Let´s put on some candles! Let´s set up a tree! Let´s drink hot Choco! Let´s eat as much as we can! Feel joyfull! Feel connected to eachother! Hell, let´s have a ball, for Gods sake! Man, it feels good.. The feeling lasts right into the new year, with fireworks and all… And then….

January…

And…

February…

Two more months of darkness, with nothing planned to cheer you up again. That´s what I hate about X-mas.. It won´t last long enough…

Why did I ever get an SL-account?

2008-11-25T12:25:00.000-08:00

That's a story that tells a bit about me. About 2 years ago the media was all over virtual worlds and especially over Second Life. Television programms spent a lot of time on this matter. All pros and cons where set against eachother and in the end all media somehow came to the conclusion virtual worlds such as Second Life could only bring harm to the people in it!

It would bring them into all kind of problems, such as loosing touch with their Real Life, spending way to much time on Second Life, it would get people in financial problems for you can spend real money to get you some Second Life Lindens (those you really need to not look like a n00b all your Second Life) and don't forget about the addictive force Second Life seems to have!

Since I'm not the one taking warnings like that for granted, I desided to get me an account myself. So I downloaded the program, got me a nice name (1 of the hardest things to do when you get your account, btw) and dove into the world they called Second Life.

There I was, standing in a place I never was before. "So.... this is it", I thought. "What's next?" I didn't have a clue on what to do!!! Lucky for me I got in touch with a nice looking female avatar who was willing to show me the way. "What are you looking for on Second Life?", she asked me. New as I was, i responded with: "Dunno, what is here to be found?" After some talking I asked her to take me to a place where I could here some nice music and meet nice people. She took me to Sanctuary Rock, since I told her the music I like is music filled with guitar noises!

When we got there, it hit me... The media was right! It is addictive! It is fun! Even when I was wearing shitty n00b clothes, I felt welcome! People got to talk to me, a live DJ even played tunes I asked for and I really was having a great time!

Since that day, a lot has happened to me on Second Life. Got me a good job, got me a nice ánd sexy lady, man, I got me a very good Second Life! Up untill now I am proud to say: "I am a resident of Second Life!" Never to leave it again. Not even 1 second of doubt on that!

Introducing: Ozark trying to blog....

2008-11-24T03:19:00.000-08:00

"Omigod, what´s this! Ozark Hax starting his own blog???? I hear you thinking: Isn´t bugging us with his crazy, freaky tunes enough? Does he really have to use all kinds of media to drag us along into his twisted brainwaves?

Well, as hard as this question might like, the answer is quite simple. Yes, he does, so start getting used to it! Every change I see, I´m gonna use to get to you. From now on you won´t be safe no more!

Not that that´s a bad thing though. Try to look here every once and a while, and perhaps you will be surprised by whats gonna be up here somehow.

I promise to put up more. About what happens in Second Life, the funny things, the not-so-good things, about up comming events, you name it! Perhaps you yourself will be mentioned someday, it´s all up to you!"