Looking back to go forward

Sometimes to go forward you have to take time standing still. Standing still, overthinking past and present. Well, this looks like a good moment to do just that.

While overthinking the past, the most important thing happened would, of course, be Guen and I breaking up once again. I know, aftergetting back together during that event at Freakheim I wrote about earlier, Guen and I both promised to do our best to make it work again, to fix all things causing the first break-up. I can tell you that during the time we were a couple again we honestly both tried, but somehow it still didn’t work out the way we both hoped it would work out. I can’t stress out enough that breaking up for the second time was a mutual decision. We both had serious doubts weather we would be able to meet the future we both were hoping for.
I also have to tell you all we parted ways, promising to keep on being good friends. To be honest, I can’t think of another way then that. My memories of our partnership are way to good to be spoiled by stupid drama.

Guen, you still are special to me, although in a different way then before. I know I will think back frequently and I know those memories will put a smile on my face every time I do just that. I’m glad to have you as a friend, don’t you hazitate to send me an IM just when you feel like it.


Another thing to stand still with is that club. “The Colosseum Of Rock!” I think it’s on the right track. Slowly more people seem to find their way to that wonderful place. This really is a big achievement to all the boys and girls of the C.O.R.-staff!Boys, girls, keep on rockin’ and make this place feel like home even more.

You gotta know I love you all, not just for your efforts, but also for being yourself! ‘cause that’s what “The Colosseum” is all about. A place you can be yourself, nothing more, nothing less. We take you the way you are........

Omigod... scary times @ Freakheim!

Yes, scary it was, my set december 27th.... And I did it all by myself. As you could have read in my last post, Guen and I decided to split up after some real good months together. Things just didn't work out the way we both thought they should...

Well guess what.... Christmas time really seems to be a time of thinking things over, and so did I. After some good thinking, helped by some amounts of alcohol, I thought "wait.... this isn't right...." We promissed to be there for eachother in good AND bad times! We should have given the bad feelings more of a fight!

So I decided to do just that. I decided to take a chance. Either I was about to make a big fool of myself, or I was about to be one of the true romantic guys in Second Life! I was about to...... ask Guen to get back together!

Noooo, not just using a simple IM, but on air, through the microphone, during my set at FREAKHEIM! The same place as where we had our wedding party!

So, yesterday I got it all planned. I got my tunes right, got an audience and..... Guen was there too! Of course I had me some beers to get in the right mood, and of course I got me more on stand-by for if Guen should turn me down.

Well, those stand-by beers, I'm having now! Didn't need them yesterday! Guen sad YES!!!!

So I think you all can imagine how I'm feeling now... This year Chistmas rocked!


Guen.... Let's face our demons, beat them and have the time of our lives....

I'm up for it!!!

Sometimes love goes strange ways.....

Christmas time. Sometimes a very emotional time. Yeah, I've heard people saying that before, but I never had anything to with it.... untill this year. My god, emotional it was, and still is. Some of you might have heard of it in the last few days already, might have been wondering if it was really true even...... Yes, it is true. Guen and I, the couple that always looked as happy as can be, did splitt up on 12-22-2008.

"Why?" I hear you thinking... Well let me tell you. As you may know already, Guen and I both are quite busy people, In RL, but certainly when we are inworld too. Guen has her shops, her DJ sets, and I didn't sit still either. I got my own DJing going on. Then Guen took the possition of manager over at Sanctuary Rock, and I decided to help out a new club, The "Colosseum Of Rock", with getting on the map.

This way time to spend together got even less then it already was! And believe me, it already was a hard thing to find some quality time for just the 2 of us, even without these 2 new commitements. And living 7 timezones away from eachother didn't help a bit too, of course.


Breaking up was hard to do... We both know it's probably the right thing to do, but with the love still in our systems, it was hard to give in to reason. I know, probably we should have tried to fight for it, but then again.... we already started to drift away from eachother some time ago.


I don't want you to think we left eachother with angry feelings, cause that's certainly not true. I still feel for Guen, and she does for me. It's just that love has strange ways sometimes. Sometimes you just gotta let someone go to show how deep the love is.

Guen, dear, hun, just know you will be missed big time. Thanks for all the good times we had, thanks for all the good memories.

Don't let this be a total ending though, don't hasitate to contact me. I know we still can have lots of fun, even when it's gonna be on another level from now on.

Please... don't stop rocking my world..... I won't stop shaking yours aswell...