Good vibrations

"I, I love the colorful clothes she wears

And the way the sunshine plays upon her hair

I hear the sound of a gentle word

On the wind that lifts her perfume through the air

I'm picking up good vibrations

She's giving me excitations

Good bop bop, good vibrations

Good, good, good, good vibrations

Close my eyes, she is somehow closer now

Softly smile, I know she must be kind

When I look in her eyes

She comes with me to a blossom world

I don't know where, but she sends me there

Oh my my my, what a sensation

Oh my my, what elation

Got to keep those loving good vibrations

Happening with her"

"Beach Boys - Good Vibrations"

'Wait... who is that she, Ozark, tell us! Who...... is....... she'

It's metaphoric, She is not a person, she is the club. She is "The Colosseum of Rock". She is a place to love, she is amazing, she is rockin', she is..... in my heart......

She is home....

Picking Up The Pieces, The Future Starts Today....

If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.

Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.

Lynyrd Skynyrd - Freebird

Yes.... Again some changes in my Second Life. A lot has happened. I'm not gonna talk about it on this blog. I just thought you all should know. The lyrics of the Lynyrd Skynyrd tune seem to fit to those things, those changes, those happenings very well. My god... were things complicated.

If you really want to know, just look me up inworld, and maybe, just maybe, in time, I can talk about it.

Now all I can say is that I'm ok. I'm not the mess you might think I am. Ready for some more changes? Guess not, guess I'm taking a break from changing anything now......

Twilight zone....

What am I doing to myself. I started my Second Life to have a life without responsibilities, without expectations. That would be so cool. Wandering around in a world where nothing hás to be done, where there is no preasure, no deadlines and no one to keep in mind. Total freedom in every thinkable way. Yeah.... Right.... Like I can do that! I was a fool believing that kind of place could exist. I'm way to much a people-person, I care way to much for others. It seems to be impossible to hide myself from Second Life. Ozark started to become more and more like me, the person behind the keyboard. Man... I think now he is me!

Does that feel bad? Does it make me sad? No, not at all... It makes me feel great! I like that Ozark guy! He could be a close friend of mine! Man, I love him for who he is! And I love the things he does....


He has lived through so much already. He has jobs, he met great other persons, he met love, lived love, lost love and met new love. My god! Is this trully a Second Life? Isn't this another First Life? I like to see it like something in between. Some things go into First Live, some stay to be Second Life..... Ozark kinda lives in the twilight zone somewhere between 1st and 2nd life. And that's the place he should be. There he feels fine, and therefor the guy behind the PC feels great also.


Thanks to all to make that twilight zone an amazing place to be. You rock my worlds. Both 1st and 2nd.....

Good to know ur being watched...

I know, before my last post, it had been awhile. Way to long, come to think. I even started to doubt if it was worth the effort of posting another one. I did because I simply had to tell it somewhere.

Then.. today, just a few ago, I looked at my gmail......... and there was one. One mail telling me posting still is ok, is appreciated...

Serval, thanks..... You made me smiling with it...

Strange things happen in pixelland..

Yes, strange things. Good things though, very good. Things that make me smile again, after a rather bad few weeks. Things I needed, things I didn't expect, things that shock my world.

Like I said... Strange things, but please.... don't let anybody or anything stop them from happening.....

O dear, am I getting lazy? it´s been a month since I posted the last time. Time to do some catching up, I guess. Now all I have to do is think about what to write about. And, my god, that is hard, since so much has happened the last few weeks. Let´s see, let´s try to sum it up for a bit:

First of all, well, look back at my last post. Yes, it sure looked like a good moment to have me a slight change of scenary concerning DJing. Leaving the place where it all started, Sanctuary Rock and try to reach the same at another spot, CrusFX. Three weeks it lasted. Then the new venue had to close down. Yeah.... That´s just my luck, don´t you think? But... besides mising out a fun moment weekly spinning tunes, it also left me with an oppertunity. All of a sudden I had time to take my bussiness somewhere else again! Oppertunity, hehe, it´s funny to read I used that word. It was more like a choise. Back to the old nest Sanctuary Rock, or... finally getting to play a regular set at "The Colosseum". Not the easiest choise, if you ask me. Sanctuary has always been good to me. I like the crowd there, the staff, management... I like the place itselves! It has been my second home for quite a while! But.. "The Colosseum", the place me and two close friends do want to see growing bigger and bigger also took a piece of my heart. It seems to go pretty well there! More people showing up during events, de group of patrons grows slowly, and the amount of fun overthere is heartwarming. And this while the building proces of that place isn´t even all finished yet! The shopping area needs a serious make-over. The shops themselves would look even better filled. But.. I think it´s just a matter of time before these things will start to get better aswell.

There that was talking bussiness, now on to social (Second) Life.
Social (Second) Life can only start with just one name. Meka. Yes, we are still doing pretty ok together, although, the last few days.... SL is feeling a bit empty. No, we are not having somekind of fight, no, not at all. Fact is Meka is on some beach, holding a margaritha right now, and I´m still in this virtual world we so like to call our second life! Man, I do like vacations, but it should be me having them, hahaha! Or both, of course, together, lol.. If only...
Good to know her vacation will be over in just a few days. Then I think it´s up to me to guide her throught the hard time of vacation rehab. Help her get back to normal again.

Of course my Second Life isn´t about just her and DJing alone. I know more people inworld. People I love being with too. People I love talking to, either the quickly sent IM´s or the good chats we have, I love them all. Those people are the ones making these empty days a bit less black. Thank you all, I think you all know who I´m talking about.

Finally... a special moment. Before you read on, get your agenda and a pen, ´cause I´m gonna order you to write something down......

Back already, with both agenda and pen?

Good, here it is then, write down: "April 25th, 1 - 7 pm SLT, Freakheim, be there".

Why? Well, it´s gonna be a blast of a party there that day, because we are gonna cellabrate Freakheim´s 1st anniversary!! One year of total, insane freakiness. How to capture all that in just 6 hours. Let´s see, damn, I think it´s kinda impossible! But of course we came up with a few things. To name just two (use that agenda and the pen again):

1 - 5 pm SLT:
The 3th Freakheim DJ Battle, with DJ´s swapping the stream on and off, trying to outfreak eachother. You sure don´t wanna miss out on that!

5 - 7(ish) pm SLT:
The usual Saturday Schred by the one and only Freakmagnet himself, Mr. Rykk Ferraris! The boss himself taking his responsibility to rock us all big time. You never know what will happen.... But when you´re not there, you can´t join us on memory lane after it. It´s up to you!

The Times They Are A-Changin'

Yes, I needed a change. After two years of playing my tunes at still one of the best places in Second Life, I decided to take another route. I had been thinking about it for quite some time, weighting all pros and cons, but in the end it led to me quitting my job as a DJ at Sanctuary Rock. This Thursday will be the last set I will be paying there. I’m aiming 4 a memorable one, though, since, well, it’s not just quitting a job, it’s quitting at the place where it all began. On my first day in Second Life, I was taken to Sanctuary Rock. I was taken by just some stranger I asked where I could hear some kickass, rockin’ tunes. The lady I asked just took me to the right place immediately! From that moment on I was hooked, hooked to that wonderful place. In like two months I applied for the job as a DJ there, and…. Somehow I got it. I have to say I only could do this with the help of two persons that still are special to me. Rohan Ayres and Marvel Kit. Those two guys really helped me out with the software needed to DJ in the first place! Thanks a lot, guys, I still owe you for just that.

Two years…. My god…. That’s quite some time. It wasn’t an easy decision to quit, I can tell you that! All those memories, al those people I got to know at Sanctuary Rock. To many to name them all, but those I’m talking about know I’m talking about them. Guys, girls, don’t think with me quitting my job at Sanctuary Rock you finally got rid of me. No.. I will keep on bugging you any chance I got! You can count on that!

So… does this mean I won’t be throwing my tunes into the world of Second Life anymore? Of course not.. I will keep on terrorizing your ears. Only from a different place right now. I was asked to come play at yet another great place and yes, I couldn’t resist. The place is called CrusFX. Come see the place for yourself when you’re inworld. I think it won’t disappoint you any bit. It rocks! And of course, I will keep on playing at that other two clubs as well. I didn’t quit my job at Freakheim Funeral Home and the Colosseum Of Rock. So plenty of possibilities to still got freaked out by those weirdass tunes I do like to play so much….

See you inworld!!!!!

~"When Worlds Collide"~

"When our two worlds collided, it gave us something divine.... Something special, something to hold on to, something to wake up with wearing a smile, something to go to bed with still wearing that same smile, and all in between was just perfect. It makes us stronger by the day."

There is sunshine ahead!

There is sunshine ahead. Yes, sunshine, and in several different ways even...

1. Winter has gone is his last few weeks. After winter it will be spring, followed by summer. Of course you all know that. But with the fact spring and summer are upon us, we can trust on getting more sunshine! Not that I dislike winter, no, not at all, but to be honest, I've had it with those cold, cold days and nights by now. Bring on the sun! I'm ready for it.....

2. And with the temperature going up, my mood will get a boost aswell. Not that I'm all grumpy during those dark and cold days in winter, but yes, I do feel better when there is sun in my life. When there is sun in my life I feel capable of taking on more then usually. I start to get more energy, and see more fun in whatever I do.

3. Speaking of sunshine, I will have a special event at "The Colosseum of Rock" that probably will catch both the two things I wrote about above. I will play only tunes that will get the temperature to rise, and that will do miracles on your mood! Just tunes with 'rays of sunlight' in them. Think Manu Chao, Noir Desir, Air, Mau Mau, Ozomatli, etc, etc, etc. I hope to see a lot of close friends during that event. It will take place at monday feb. 9 (1.30 - 3.30 pm SLT).

4. More sunshine would be someone I got in touch with. I know it's still early, but I gotta tell you this: I'm having a good time with her. We take it by the day, and see what the future brings us. Up untill now, I'm looking at the future wearing a real big smile.

There, after these few points, it's time to take a drink. Cheers! Cheers on the sun!

Looking back to go forward

Sometimes to go forward you have to take time standing still. Standing still, overthinking past and present. Well, this looks like a good moment to do just that.

While overthinking the past, the most important thing happened would, of course, be Guen and I breaking up once again. I know, aftergetting back together during that event at Freakheim I wrote about earlier, Guen and I both promised to do our best to make it work again, to fix all things causing the first break-up. I can tell you that during the time we were a couple again we honestly both tried, but somehow it still didn’t work out the way we both hoped it would work out. I can’t stress out enough that breaking up for the second time was a mutual decision. We both had serious doubts weather we would be able to meet the future we both were hoping for.
I also have to tell you all we parted ways, promising to keep on being good friends. To be honest, I can’t think of another way then that. My memories of our partnership are way to good to be spoiled by stupid drama.

Guen, you still are special to me, although in a different way then before. I know I will think back frequently and I know those memories will put a smile on my face every time I do just that. I’m glad to have you as a friend, don’t you hazitate to send me an IM just when you feel like it.


Another thing to stand still with is that club. “The Colosseum Of Rock!” I think it’s on the right track. Slowly more people seem to find their way to that wonderful place. This really is a big achievement to all the boys and girls of the C.O.R.-staff!Boys, girls, keep on rockin’ and make this place feel like home even more.

You gotta know I love you all, not just for your efforts, but also for being yourself! ‘cause that’s what “The Colosseum” is all about. A place you can be yourself, nothing more, nothing less. We take you the way you are........